Around four months ago I began a new project called ‘Project 365’. This is where I have to post one photo per day for one year.
I started this project, not just for my love of photography, but because it helped me keep my mind busy and straw away from my everyday concerns with anxiety.
Just by holding a camera I am able to feel a comfort, it’s a feeling that warms the part of my brain that is telling me I’m not OK with the situation that I’m in – this might be crowds, functions, pubs, streets, underground trains– all of these things might set my anxiety levels off. When I have my camera I can simply shoot them away.
Not only would this project help me in social situations and with my anxiety, but at home too. When the anxiety has lifted and I’m home in a safe space, my depression decides to show its ugly face and try to change that safe space into a very lonely one. At this low time, I will open my laptop and edit the photos I’ve shot. With a lot of effort, my passion for my photos has taken my mind away, the horrible sticky blackness that is constantly trying to pull me down and taken me to a new level of lost has lifted (sometimes completely). Being lost in my own world, my own art, in something I have created and something I can be proud of, there’s no better feeling to me.
Being lost in my own world and my own art, in something that I have created and I can be proud of, and to have someone else enjoy it too, well, there’s not much more I could want in life.
So, each day on my good days and my bad days, I will post one photo per day. Not for other people to like, admire or criticise. But for me.
I once read advice from another photographer, he said that you should only post your work to the public if YOU are happy with it, don’t post something just because you think that your audience will like it. Since reading that, I’ve committed myself to posting my own style and my own personal favourites, not just to fit into the society of photographers, and not to compare my work with them either. My passion is in my work, and if people enjoy that, then there is nothing more satisfying.
Most of this project has been on my personal social media pages, but I’ve decided to bring it to the public. So here are the first 100 days. I hope you enjoy the next 265.