I left London feeling very nervous about the prospect of travelling on my own. Everyone I know has told me that I’m so confident to do this on my own, but that’s not what was going on in my head. In my head things are crazy. I’m thinking I’m almost 30, I’m leaving a good job and my friends and family to go to travel across Canada on my own. What??! That’s insane. You travel when you’re 18, not when you’re almost 30! What if I got out there and the other backpackers thought I was old because I didn’t stay up drinking wine out of a bag until 6 am?
Back then I was so confident and I had no idea what I was doing (like most 22-year-olds), I just ran off to Australia with my boyfriend with a $1000 in my pocket and not a care in the world. I didn’t know what I was heading into, so much so that I was surprised to see skyscrapers in Brisbane (true story). I thought it would be a town, not a city. I was also convinced by an Aussie on my first night that “Drop Bears” were real (they are not, and don’t believe Wikipedia). 22, confident and stupid. Surprisingly I managed to last 5 years out there.
22, confident and stupid and surprisingly I managed to last 5 years out there.
7 years on, I’m so far from that person I can’t even imagine her.
This time around I have been saving for 6 months, I’ve been planning for a year, I’ve got travel books, lists, lists of lists, I have three months worth of accommodation booked and planned out, I’ve brought everything I could possibly need (even bear spray, yes that’s a thing).
So not only am I no longer the carefree 22-year-old, I am an anxiety ridden, (almost) 30-year old that can’t get through a day without making a list and ticking things off.
Anyway, the point is I am 29 (almost 30), last time I went travelling I was only 22. The differences between then and now are pretty huge, and that’s what I’d like to base this blog on.
The next post will begin with my first few days in New York, but for now, it’s Sunday morning andI need to get dressed so I can go for brunch in Upper West Manhattan.